so what happens if i don’t live forever? (also how i became an athiest [extremely abridged])

When I was in 7th grade my religion teacher told the class that it was ok to be gay, but that having gay sex was a sin. Tell any 12 year old kid he can’t have sex (well, the kind he wants to have) and you lose ‘em. And Catholicism lost me. But that didn’t mean there was no God, not for sure anyway. I was content, for many years, to think that the church just gets some things wrong, that of course, an ever loving God would never send me to hell for sucking a dick (especially when he’s the one who made me want to do it…)

So I embraced my agnosticism, which by the time I graduated, had turned more into a quasi-spiritual pick and choose belief system when I got into mysticism and spirit guides and healing (note: not heavily into , I was just… browsing), and now my stance is basically… wait and see. But my intuition is that there is no afterlife.

The more ‘atheist’ I became, the more I began to feel free. There was no God watching and judging everything I do. I am the ultimate judge of myself. I am the only person with that power, truly. I once mentioned I was an atheist to a casual acquaintance and he said “…must be lonely sometimes.” I never looked at it that way. The only thing atheism has given me is less guilt, and a feeling of purpose.

I’ve been digging into Transhumanism for a while now, and I’ve become fairly persuaded by the evidence that we are developing technologies that will radically extend our lives (possibly until the end of the universe[or the beginning of the next one]). But lot’s of people like to say that this is nothing more than technologists wishful thinking, their own scientific version of religion, creating heaven on earth, rapture of the nerds some people have called it. And until I see the actual technologies working, on humans, I can’t have 100% confidence that they aren’t wrong. So what happens if I do die?

Well, I was an atheist (well, let’s say… 96% atheist. There’s always a chance the theists are right) before I stumbled upon transhumanism and my stance on death hasn’t changed much. If death is inevitable, then all that means is that this life is more precious. There is no garuntee, or even reason to think, that there is anything after this life. So make each moment count. And don’t worry about dying, because if you do die, you’ll either be starting on some great adventure, or you’ll be nothing, like before you were born.

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s’right bitch, that’s the way we likes it.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2010/02/12/nancy-elliott-anti-gay-ne_n_460544.html

poor angry woman doesn’t seem to understand there are ways to keep clean. i guess back in her wilder days a boyfriend must’ve pulled something out of her or something. it’s ok nancy.

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so glad

Listening to Smodcast episode 80, with Kevin Smith (Clerks, Zack and Miri Make a Porno) and Scott Mosier (his producer) and I am so fucking glad I’ll never have to worry about impregnating anyone and I’ll never need to get a vasectomy.

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…complains that more guys don’t experiment (ie. want to have sex with me)

I think it’s really interesting how right now it’s much more prominent for girls to experiment with girls than guys with guys. No wait, not interesting, I meant shitty. For me. But fine, whatever, the thing that really gets me is the attitude people have that this is some sort of natural thing, it seems obvious for some reason that girls will experiment more than guys. I’ve been scoffed at for suggesting that guys could ever.

Ok first I have to get into what I think causes homosexuality. There is no gay gene, at least not that anyone’s found yet. Just like there’s no criminal gene and there’s no nice gene, behaviour does not seem to stem, in general, from the genetic level. The best they’ve found are some dna markers that seem to correlate with homosexuality, sometimes. All that means is that more gay people have this marker or gene or whatever than straight people. But not all of us have it, and not everyone who has it is gay. I don’t understand why some gay people keep hoping for this genetic basis like it will somehow validate our existence. I guess maybe they think it’ll shut up those maniacs who want to cure homosexuality. The proper argument to use there is not that it can’t be changed because it’s genetic, it’s that there’s no reason it should be changed.

So back to the original point. Since it’s not like females are genetically somehow more open to experimentation. It’s completely societal. And it’s not even like it’s been a constant in every society throughout history. In fact most of these examples support the idea that same sex behaviour is mostly environmental. The most commonly known example is that in Ancient Greece, most men of any type of stature had a male lover. It was just something every guy did, usually in addition to his wife. ‘Male Azande warriors in the northern Congo routinely took on young male lovers between the ages of twelve and twenty, who helped with household tasks and participated in intercrural sex [[thigh fucking...hahahah]]’. For native americans, “Two-Spirit” individuals were shamans, in fact they were usually considered to have powers greater than regular shamans, and had regular sex with “normal” male tribe members. Homosexuality was an ‘integral’ part of buddhist monastic life and the samurai tradition in Japan. Every Roman Emperor (except for one) had male lovers. A few cultures in Papua New Guinea even went as far as to consider heterosexuality at all a sin. Though I’m still having trouble wrapping my head around how that worked.
*All this info raped from wikipedia.

So my point is that more guys would experiment (hopefully with me) if we didn’t live in such a repressed fucking bullshit Christian society. Because apparently when everyone else is doing it almost every single guy in a society is ready to get down with a dude or two.

While I’m sounding bitter I just want to add that I wish gay guys would stop internalizing these offensive fucking stereotypes that they show on Will & Grace and Queer Eye For The Straight Guy. Well, more like I wish the stereotypes weren’t there to internalize. I could go on about this but I’m at risk of offending some of my own people (I think it’s dumb we are even grouped together based on having one behavioural trait in common) and I don’t want to do that because us gay people have it rough enough.

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05.16.2009

Are you proud of your country? I’m not. I don’t even understand why I should be… just because I was born here? Don’t get me wrong, I’m not hating on Canada or anything, it’s a pretty rad place to live all things considered, but, I mean, a country isn’t even a real thing. It’s a group of people within some lines on a map, a government, and a military. To be proud of my country means that I have to believe it’s better then any other. It’s a method of division, of keeping people divided from one another. It’s as dumb as being proud when the sports team that happens to have your cities name on their jersey wins a game.

And then before you know it, the people inside my lines on the map are fighting with the people inside their lines on the map, because everyone is so fucking proud of their country or their religion that they can’t ever compromise or admit they’ve made a mistake. I know a lot of us canadians like to joke about how we’re just a little bit better then americans, but it’s not really a joke. We actually think that. I know I do sometimes. Or at least I used to. I thought that because of a few choices our government has made, we are better people then they are.

I’m not saying pride is always a bad thing. The people who wrote the american constitution had something to be proud of. They did something new and revolutionary (for their time). But does that mean that people living in America today should still be proud of something that was done by people who died before they were even born? I don’t think so. I think, rather then clinging to their country’s great accomplishments of the past, they should continue to accomplish great things (or at least be trying for fucks sakes). It’s like the founding fathers pointed people in a direction of freedom, and the people just stood there, feeling proud, instead of continuing the work and moving forward (well, ok, we have moved forward since then, a great deal, actually, but much too slowly, in my opinion). Because let’s not kid ourselves. People today are not free. Forget about the terrible wars and famines and dictatorships across the planet. We, here in North America, are not free. If we don’t submit ourselves to labour in order to earn a wage, we are unable to live.

Sorry, I kind of got off on a tangent there… my point is that blind pride isn’t much better then blind faith. It’s a distortion. I’ve been asked a couple times if I’m proud of being gay. And I say no. I’m not ashamed of it, but I don’t know why I should be proud. It’s not something I chose or accomplished (like say… coming out, that is something I’m proud of). But being gay? It’s a roll of the dice… just like the country I was born in, the religion of my parents, my gender, my hair color, my skin color, my mental capacity, my physical abilities… That’s why I don’t get gay pride, or feminism, or whatever other rights groups there are. Everybody deserves rights. Imagine if all these separate rights and advocacy groups got together, and demanded equal rights for every human across the planet. That is something I’d be a part of. Focusing in on one specific issue is, again, divisionary. It encourages the idea that these groups of people are somehow separate from everyone else. We should celebrate the things that make us unique. These differences are the one thing that unify us, that make us all the same. It’s the mechanism behind ‘pride’ specifically that often makes people feel morally superior to one another. Which isn’t something to be proud of.

So go out and create something you think is beautiful. Do something nice for somebody. Do something nice for yourself. Forgive someone. Help someone. Actually go and DO something good, and then feel proud of yourself, because you’ll actually have earned it.

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